Saturday, July 18, 2009
nothing is certain, only love exists
but that doesnt mean i want to.. :X
tell me what happened?..
you know i care and will always be there..
;certain things i dont wanna think about!
<3 God! | 10:47 PM
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
fire
i must learn to be contentedly single!..
;ouch!..
<3 God! | 8:45 PM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
story
10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.
text by random email
nice right?..
thankyouu xiangy..
;i can wait.. i will wait..
<3 God! | 8:56 PM
Sunday, July 12, 2009
monday blues
;again..
<3 God! | 10:28 PM
Saturday, July 11, 2009
bored
while playing i got bored again..
so i killed my enemies using nuclear plants..
took me 2 hours to finish that 1 game..
sian..
;you always pangseh me..
<3 God! | 3:00 PM
Friday, July 10, 2009
rant
and i thought you were one of my closest friends..
fiiiine shun me.. ><
but stop looking at me like i've caught the plague!..
;turns out your best friend is my closest friend..
<3 God! | 6:45 PM
sister's keeper
over the book..
reminds me how life is so unpredictable?..
and that one moment you have it the next it's out of your hands and flying away..
that's what happiness always does..
and that's just how life is..
maybe i should stop blaming the whole world
for how i feel inside..
but instead learn to embrace what i have..
and be contented for what i do not have..
;i wish i was anna..
<3 God! | 4:14 PM
Thursday, July 09, 2009
blehhs.
sometimes life is just sad
;why cant you make it?..
<3 God! | 11:25 PM
blank
for shelter and affection
that she never found at home
she is searching
for a hero to ride in
to ride in and save the day
who will save her from all these?..
its kinda sad that i can only turn to magnums for comfort..
;does anybody hear her..
<3 God! | 4:57 PM
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
;things just didnt go the way i wanted it to be?..
<3 God! | 2:49 PM
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
slipaway
maybe you thought that it was all pretend
all these words that i could never say
i just let them slip away
;let that prayer come true..
<3 God! | 11:31 PM
GOOGLED
and im not hiding the fact that i do..
yes it's all my fault..
blame me..
i did it..
yay..
;long live the whatever..
<3 God! | 7:18 PM
Monday, July 06, 2009
the host
the host is really thought-provoking..
as much as it may be a sci-fi novel kinda thing,
i think it deals a lot a lot a lot with human emotions..
loving every minute of it, clinging onto every word!..
;ahh back to school.. ):
<3 God! | 7:02 PM
Saturday, July 04, 2009
light
;relaxed mode!.. and relaxed mood also!..
<3 God! | 11:45 PM
psc
coz i saw you today..
and you look pretty haha.. xD
yay to xiangying boo to isa!..
see you both on monday!..
;<3
<3 God! | 4:52 PM
Thursday, July 02, 2009
all over
read that in The Host..
quite true no?.. haha..
so i guess sometimes being sad is something to be happy about..
and many times i die to live..
yea wells anyways everything's over.. whew..
math was dont-talk-to-me-about-it, econs too..
at least chem was relatively easy and physics was doable..
haha hopefully i do well!.. :X
despite my lack of studying.. ):
;like i promised, i'll talk to you tml.. (:
<3 God! | 1:26 PM
Monday, June 29, 2009
econs
;mugging math.. econs sucked..
<3 God! | 10:50 PM
Friday, June 26, 2009
everything
watch!.. (:
it's really nice..
i wish i could catch His hand,
and He'll pull me away from lust, materialism, outward appearances, and vice..
;You're all i want, You're all i need..
<3 God! | 11:07 PM
Thursday, June 25, 2009
mugging
haha woke up late, sorry sab!..
yupp mugged in school today..
okay laa not exactly very very productive,
but met expectations.. (:
wheeeee..
my messages got through to many people!..
so many wishes granted haha.. (:
;ask me the question lehh!..
<3 God! | 9:46 PM
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
messages
so here goes!..
i saw you today and im sorry i didnt say hi..
what do you have to tell me!
im sorry i didnt tell you anything, you just didnt ask.. :X
im really thankful for a friend like you!.. (:
talk to me i miss you..
and i miss you too..
when are we going to have our buddy lunch haha..
i loved the papers and the buddy book you gave me on fri!..
it was great fun mugging with you today!.. (:
i hope you didnt die at NS checkup..
will you go out for a movie with me?..
i think you fit the perfect description of lucy..
come back from thailand safe and sound!..
that's all.. find your message!..
;go figure..
<3 God! | 6:52 PM
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
smiles all around
that you know who your true friends really are..
thankyou you.. (:
you know who you are haha.. xD
;i am grateful and thankful~
<3 God! | 2:27 PM
Monday, June 22, 2009
thinking..
but hands beg me to stay
your lips say that you love
your eyes say that you hate
why is it so awkward between us now?..
there's truth in your lies
doubt in your faith
what you built you lay to waste
what are you trying to mean?..
i dont understand you..
there's truth in your lies
doubt in your faith
all i've got's what you didn't take
you've broken my heart..
what do you want from me now?..
;more than i'll ever know..
<3 God! | 10:48 PM
Saturday, June 20, 2009
desperate people
You offered Your Life though we had failed
The veil was torn and love remained
You are holy Lord
Distraction cost us, now we seek Your face
We offer up our lives to bring You praise
A love that walls cannot contain
You are holy Lord
We're rising up in spirit and in truth
A living sacrifice, we worship You
A people undivided, Lord, hear us sing
We are Yours, and You are our King
Chorus:
This is our love
Hearts joined as one
Desperate for all you are
Lord break down these walls, and see how we love
Desperate for all You are
We chase Your heart
We didn't come to leave here entertained
Or worship under any other name
We're crying out for You alone
You are holy Lord
Bridge:
Show us the way of Your heart
We find our voice, we found our voice
We're on our knees, the carpet's worn
As we join our heats with distant shores
And sing to You, Lord
love this song.. much..
;a love that walls cannot contain..
<3 God! | 11:18 PM
angst or anger
well, why dont you ask yourself?..
and as for YOU, stop trying to be a smartass..
i am SICK and TIRED of you saying im an rj kid so im the best at everything..
stop using that sarcasm on me..
stop being insulting when i did not do anything to you..
stop being an asshole..
YOU always cause the trouble..
YOU always make meals an unpleasant event..
YOU always irritate people..
and YOU have pissed me off MAJORLY..
so there..
i am not a freaking girl who moodswings..
so screw off..
;and whoever said only girls moodswinged?.. -.-
<3 God! | 9:51 PM
Friday, June 19, 2009
playing in nimiety
hurts.. ):
;its so uncomfortable!..
<3 God! | 11:13 PM
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
always
but it always comes out wrong
have i moved on?..
i hope i have..
i dont wanna get stuck in this conundrum of worries and apologies..
taxing it is on me..
didnt study today.. ):
though i planned not to..
i wanted to outdo my expectations rawr!.. :X
and i forgot to pass her the stuff ughh..
always, all ways, i wanted us to be
always, all ways, you and me
;simplify!..
<3 God! | 7:25 PM
tauts
;y'know, whateverrrrr..
<3 God! | 12:05 AM
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
edutitta
;dunno what to do, dowan to think of what to do..
<3 God! | 1:04 AM
Sunday, June 14, 2009
the content of your prayer defines you
Your Love's unending
and Your Word is eternal
firm in the heavens It stands
it's been a long while since i praised the Lord on my blog.. :X
ohhman i suck..
had service today..
was about the Untouchables in India..
touching stories!..
and preacher went through Matt 6: 11 - 13 i think?..
about Jesus' prayer to His Father..
really the content of your prayers is who you are..
i really think that there's something going on..
even though other people are adamant that it's nothing..
i dunno to trust myself or others..
;only time will tell..
<3 God! | 1:28 AM
Friday, June 12, 2009
wrongfully mine
coz i'll never be with you
;go ahead.. go ahead..
<3 God! | 11:58 PM
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
globalisation
super heartstring tugging!.. :X
http://www.cultureunplugged.com/play/1081/Chicken-a-la-Carte/TVE9PStP
;visits were fun.. (:
<3 God! | 11:09 PM
Monday, June 08, 2009
cr
ohhman recover soon!.. (:
;hap was quite fun.. (:
<3 God! | 10:29 PM
Saturday, June 06, 2009
milo mcflurry
haha worth watching..
HAP next week!..
and loads of movies i wanna watch.. ):
;who will watch with me!..
<3 God! | 11:24 PM
Friday, June 05, 2009
a&d
didnt have breakfast or lunch..
was just too lazy.. hehs..
had openhouse handover..
like only lasted half an hour..
super fast.. i think quite waste time haha..
could have gone to watch a&d!.. ):
ohhwells..
played soccer with woosheng they all in the late afternoon..
dang i broke my specs..
martin's headers too qiang already..
could break specs ahahha.. xD ohhwells..
159 bucks.. ): heartpain..
spare specs spare specs.. xD
at least i scored the first goal.. (:
;moviemoviemovie!..
<3 God! | 9:38 PM
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
pes
sucks.. i got everything pes A until the doc say i g6pd pes B..
so damn im pes B.. ): sucks..
ahh.. blood test was scary..
arif had so many attempts at it..
saddening lol..
lucky mine only once.. :X
going to study tml.. hehs..
i think most probs will finish up isle report instead.. :X ahhwells..
;holidays seem short..
<3 God! | 11:31 PM
Tuesday, June 02, 2009
hmm
touching show!..
shed a couple of tears..
hmm yea led me to think about losing loved ones..
saddening.. reminds me of my maternal grandfather..
and telling me about my still living maternal grandmother..
i must cherish..
;i wish that robbing us of our loved ones is illegal..
<3 God! | 8:33 PM
Monday, June 01, 2009
better
haha thankyou all!..
all who came today!.. (:
XUNJIE, ARJUN, JOY, CYNTHIA, CHEWMIN, VANESSA, FELICIA, NICOLE, PEIRONG, ISABELLE, SHERYL!..
YAY we did a lot!..
felicia tanked the whole girl's part for the recordings so left to me to do the guy's one!..
and arjun and the rest did up the flipcharts!..
all done already yay!.. (:
haha loads of smileys.. (: (: (: (:
;nigel is HAPPY..
<3 God! | 6:22 PM
Sunday, May 31, 2009
>(
why does nothing seem to work huh?..
why is it so that when i call for meetings so many people cant come huh?..
i told you all early..
and i made sure it will be on the 1st of june so it wont affect your studies..
now 3 are going overseas and at least 1 cannot make it..
(for various reasons unknown)
i dunno what to do..
screw it..
there's always a last resort..
;i am NOT HAPPY..
<3 God! | 8:34 PM
Friday, May 29, 2009
damn
maybe that's why..
;where did i go wrong..
<3 God! | 11:05 PM
torture
loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away
how can i love you
if you dont talk to me baby
;sudden introvertedness and malignant moodswings are signs of depression..
<3 God! | 9:02 PM
Thursday, May 28, 2009
butterflies fighting to make coffee
he bought icecream for me, norris, dhruv and cynthia!..
super nice super nice!..
thankyou mr kadir!.. xD
hehs.. today was a blur..
coz i was sooo tired.. like zonk haha..
manU barca.. nothing to say.. ):
finishing rachel's holiday!.. (:
;holidays are coming!..
<3 God! | 9:46 PM
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
si mian chu ge
so why dont you piss off
;i want chocolate..
<3 God! | 7:44 PM
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
holiday!
didnt study for it at all..
rather more like dunno how to study for it..
hope i'll do well.. :X
watermelon and angels are nice books!.. (:
thanks nicole!..
but haha all about divorce and sex and hot guys and pretty girls lol..
rachel's holiday seem different!..
hope it is haha.. (:
jiayou everybody!..
;cant bear to let it go..
<3 God! | 9:33 PM
Monday, May 25, 2009
chaoda
it's okay (:
why arent you replying me.. ):
okay maybe youre busy..
i shouldnt bother you right?..
im sorry..
;this is how i disappear..
<3 God! | 8:57 PM
Saturday, May 23, 2009
2-8 2-8 it's not too late
am i proud to be a 28th?..
YES I AM!.. (:
am really super happy that i joined council..
i wouldnt have it any other way!.. xD
reading the notes from houseD members really touched me!..
like jacky's especially haha..
I LOVE MT HOUSED!..
we must go out soon kay!.. (:
and 28ths are generally nice.. xD
;i wanna hang out in council room naooooo.. :X
<3 God! | 9:24 PM
Friday, May 22, 2009
blehhs..
im at a loss as to what to do..
and i know for sure, im still single..
stop spreading malicious rumours!.. :(
;what can i say..
<3 God! | 9:15 PM
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
8 times..
sadly they lost.. ):
they were doing so well at first i was so proud of them!..
but now im still proud of them.. (:
though i think got a couple of undeserving players.. :(
ohhwells nicely done hockey girls!..
tml going to watch hockey boys finals!.. xD hahaha..
i listened to the new 28ths song 8 times today!.. :D ahaha wheee..
love it!.. (:
;will we disappear?.. will we fade away?.. will we not talk anymore?..
<3 God! | 10:10 PM
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
28ths and 29ths are the love (:
no hiccups and everyone was pretty or handsome!..
alison was super sweet!.. and so were vanessa and germaine!..
theyre the best man haha.. xD and and took photos!..
but i dont have haha..
final night wasnt concluded but it was saddening..
super thankful to everyone for their support!.. :D
openhouse comm you rock!.. xD
last part of final night to be completed on saturdayyy!.. (:
here instead are some photos of the stuff i got after final night!.. (: LOVE!..
from the nicest ever 29ths!.. hahaha.. the frame from VANESSA (: , lollipop from GERMAINE and the super super super pretty M&M jar from ALISON!.. (: ahh you 3 totally rock my socks!..
these items are from my house buddy and council buddy!.. vanessa bought me the shirt!.. and purposely wrote everything in PINK for her note to me!.. so super sweet!.. (: she also bought me a SUPER CUTE PINK MONKEY!.. not in photo will upload soooon.. (:and germaine gave me a lollipop plus a note!.. the note had a super cute pig on it hahaha..
go out soon for lunch germaine!.. and and maybe one day i invite you both out for lunch!.. my treat.. (:
and this was everything i got on final night.. lovely notes from lovely friends, plus the gifts.. the nice brown/black note was from wenyu!.. and the dog finger puppet toooo.. xD yanhan gave me a super sweet note with a nice sticker outside and a Freddo chocolate!.. koo and kml were especially awesome for writing me notes too!!.. LOVE LOVE!.. ahaha..i think council has truely been a super nice place to be..
i dont ever wanna leave.. T.T
some of my closest friends came from there..
xiangying, kevinQ, houseD, vanessa, germaine, leening, 27ths..
everyone rocks!.. (:
haha i think i'll cry on final night 2.. :X sighh..
saddening to leave everything behind..
ohhwells.. it's time!..
29ths the stage is set, the mike's all yours..
do us proud..
28ths, it's time to let go, time to treasure our memories,
to start to leave everything behind, to look to the future,
and leap together, to someplace we've never been before..
to infinity and beyond..
;with an aching heart, i start to sweep up the shattered pieces, i start to release my balloons of joy, i start to free my beasts of hate, but the one thing i'll keep.. memories of the 28ths students' council..
<3 God! | 11:08 PM
Saturday, May 16, 2009
invest..
if i hadnt gone to church i'd still be fuming to the max..
teachers are interfering too much..
they are unreasonable..
they are screwing up things..
they are forcing us to do what they wanna do..
now, let us put our hands together to invite the 1st Teachers' Council!..
nevermind.. i've decided to let it go..
screw them.. seriously..
and no im not going to take this post down..
we'll just see on monday..
To Infinity and Beyond - Ada and Chloe
didnt know how to hold a paintbrush
didnt think we could achieve much
but when we look back we've painted a picture so beautiful
hey that's me and you
each minute seemed like an hour
each time we went down together
but when we got up we grew stronger
more together
CHORUS
from a list of names
to full-fledged 28ths
we've come a long way
we've made the day
we're 94
but as one we're so much more
and i hope we'll keep going on
to infinity and beyond
o'tiero our magic fairytale land
turned 360 and trash became a golden man
don't care 'bout my fever, coz today's the day to play
and tonight is our last dance
CHORUS
we had a fountain of dreams
a calling to lead
to leap from where we are
to someplace we've never gone so far
but now whenever i look back
i see people not events
then i realised the legacy's just me and you
CHORUS
;so full of hope.. it's saddening.. ):
<3 God! | 8:16 PM
Thursday, May 14, 2009
fuzzy feeling.. (:
haha took photo with buddy and house buddy!!.. xD
i swear they look super pretty in the pictures hahaha..
and am quite happy that im getting to know some of the 29ths better!.. (:
whee!.. (: happy pictures happy pictures!!..
from a list of names
to full fledged 28ths,
we've come a long way
we've made the day
we're 94
but as one we're so much more
~~~~~~ (forgot line!.. ): )
to infinity and beyond..
;chloe and ada are woohoo!.. xD
<3 God! | 11:46 PM
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
eeks
;tiring..
<3 God! | 10:38 PM
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
watermelonesque
claire is just crazy.. (:
addicted..
thankyou haha.. xD
;jealousy is self mutilation.. :X
<3 God! | 5:30 PM
Monday, May 11, 2009
irked.. again..
let's just change SC to TC shall we?..
i miss ms hor.. ):
;even without this scenario, i miss her all the same..
<3 God! | 8:35 PM
Sunday, May 10, 2009
(:
;hockey match!.. xD
<3 God! | 10:30 PM
Saturday, May 09, 2009
ditd
apart from screwed up people in my room?..
who use their handphones, complain about the dark (seriously wtf),
cheer weird cheers, and think they own the place?..
damn loser.. some from our school and others from our rival lol..
seriously a disgrace!.. ohhwells.. at least tri and i could experience it.. (:
was quite good.. food too ahaha.. xD except the mashed potatoes haha..
;i didnt know!.. but now i do.. (:
<3 God! | 12:47 AM
Thursday, May 07, 2009
piqued..
sometimes i always wonder why some people get into sc..
some exco member somemore..
what are you supposed to do at ms?.. gossip?..
talk among yourselves?.. be extremely insincere in congratulating your OWN SCHOOLMATES?..
seriously what's wrong with you people?.. i hate to admit it but i think the 29ths were doing a far better job..
honestly i really cant be bothered with you people..
but it just irritates me to know that youre taking up someone else's place in sc who might do a better job than you.. true the 29ths do talk among themselves, but i hear them cheering out so much louder, so much more frequently than you.. law was one of the only 28ths running around cheering his heart out.. that's the mark of a true 28th..
and you must know im not referring to all the 28ths.. just that particular group..
go drown yourselves..
;no words can express..
<3 God! | 8:55 PM
Wednesday, May 06, 2009
eeeks..
;i didnt know..
<3 God! | 7:18 PM
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
T.T
about love and relationships..
some parts quite true laa.. but others..
i dont quite agree.. haha.. :X
and playing tabletennis with cr is really fun!.. xD
refreshing to play tabletennis again!.. :D
i like i like!..
awwman internet down again.. ):
;sighh..
<3 God! | 8:41 PM
Sunday, May 03, 2009
house councillor dinner!..
hahaha i love my house buddy to bits and teeny weeny pieces laa..
she's super sweet!.. bought me a HUGE poohbear haha..
made many many many people jealous.. ^^
ohhohh and i saw LIANLI and NEVILLE NAH..
not together of course but haha surprise.. (:
pictures!.. xD
this one is the pooh sitting down..
and this one is the pooh lying down!.. xD
haha super cute!.. 18 inches i think?.. haha..
love germaine!.. (:
and and yesterday was buddy lunch with VANESSA LEENING and HUAN YONG!..
hahaha super funny time!.. yay vanessa is talking to me more haha..
i think my buddies are all super super super nice!..
and theyre super pretty toooo.. :D
im a lucky guy haha..
anyways lunch was great, and treated by huanyong.. xD
had sinful desserts and stuff hees.. must go out more also!..
and and and i passed my buddies their buddy books already!..
hope buddyship will stay strong and not die yea!.. (:
love my buddies hahaah AHHH..
: VANESSA (:
:D GERMAINE :D
xD LEENING xD
;im a lucky guy.. (:
<3 God! | 11:23 PM
kay..
i guess?..
;complicated..
<3 God! | 1:24 AM
Friday, May 01, 2009
thoughts
i feel scared that i wont wake up..
or that the world has come to an end..
not like what it is now..
i hope that never happens.. ):
;randomizing..
<3 God! | 11:23 PM
untitled
;i can feel it in my bones..
<3 God! | 1:07 AM
treasure..
the short times i have with isa every tues and thurs morning after sv while walking to the parade square..
i treasure..
the short times in the morning where i get to talk to xiangying and hockey boys..
i treasure..
the badge that i have now..
i treasure..
my family which has been with me all along.. (:
i treasure..
every moment in church..
i treasured..
the times spent in MBD in Thailand..
i treasured..
every moment of being an interactor in ri..
i treasured..
every single moment when people talk to me..
i treasured..
happy times spent with classmates..
i will treasure..
anytime spent with you..
i will treasure..
anything you give me..
i will treasure..
you..
i opened my eyes and look what i found
a treasure chest before me with a nice little crown
i opened it wide
and gaped at the sight
and i start thinking to myself
i dont deserve this wealth
but deep in my heart i know
that youre worth more than the price of gold
;am i as treasured?.. that doesnt really matter no?..
<3 God! | 12:25 AM
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
ladeeda
and cant wait for sunday's house councillor dinner.. (:
;i need to get a present..
<3 God! | 10:41 PM
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
><
despite leading so many times and all,
i realised i really have something which im lacking in..
which is commanding my teammates to do work..
i realise that, when my team members dont do work
i just silently pick up the slack,
instead of getting them to finish their allocated stuff..
this is bad.. ):
i hope i dont burn..
back to doing games day board stuff.. :X
quote of the day: youre a bimb calling a bimbo pink!..
;failfailfail.. ):
<3 God! | 10:22 PM
Monday, April 27, 2009
desert..
more desperate than a thirsty dying man in the desert..
i wish i could do things better..
and you know what?..
i really wanna know how you feel now..
;what would you do if you knew your closest friend liked the same girl as you?..
<3 God! | 10:03 PM
Saturday, April 25, 2009
in a faraway land
i wanted to go one.. now i know that kenneth, raina and andrea are going!.. ):
sighh.. wasted.. saddening lehh..
anyways, church made me think a lot..
like i havent been really enjoying life..
im just rushing through everything,
without stopping to smell the roses kinda thing?..
thinking mode.. hmm..
;i must put these 2 days to good use..
<3 God! | 9:54 PM
Friday, April 24, 2009
yaayyyeee (:
though drew 0-0, i think our girls played well.. xD
haha YAY XIANGYING!.. (:
;broken strings and cut up hearts..
<3 God! | 10:40 PM
Thursday, April 23, 2009
web of deceit
seriously..
nevermind..
buddies all at ophir.. ):
hope theyre safe and enjoying themselves!.. ahh miss them!..
haha.. come back soon!!..
going to support hockey girls tml!.. (:
lost my voice today..
but it was worth it.. for the double gold.. (:
;2.4km 20 pullups
<3 God! | 11:29 PM
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
kajegbkjaergk
1. fell off chair in council room
2. injured left foot coz of that
3. it still hurts now
4. had lunch alone
5. didnt have pe
6. cynthia was sick
7. someone disappointed me GREATLY.. ):
8. i didnt bring my quantum physics notes (for the 4th time already)
9. vanessa wont be going for MS
10. xiangying is SAD!.. ):):):):
but there was one thing to be happy for!..
she said hi to me today.. (:
ohhohh and isa was very nice today too!.. (:
that's 2 haha.. xD
shall rest my foot and play a bit of campaign.. byeeee..
;house comm elections coming up..
<3 God! | 7:59 PM
Sunday, April 19, 2009
post cc blues..
ahh.. council camp was good.. glad i managed to talk to many of the mt councillors!.. the activities were great and i hope the j1s enjoyed themselves!.. :D
and and and SHOUTOUT TO BUDDIES!..
ahhh love you LEENING and VANESSA!..
vanessa's my new buddy!..
she's super cute and nice!.. xD
and leening's the best.. didnt bat an eyelid when i ate 20 bucks from her haha.. xD
YAY FOR BUDDIES!..
that goes for cousin buddy XIANGY and her buddies JEVON and RYAN!.. :D
quite a rarity.. that i actually enjoyed myself so much with councillors.. haha..
ohhwells.. i guess everyone has their nice parts.. (:
glad i got to know more 28ths too..
and and and tml's council orientation!..
LOOKING FORWARD!..
never once from my mind did you leave
but what you wanted i could not give
when all i wanted and needed was just a glimpse of you
i was stuck and there was nothing i could do
;i hope youre missing me as much as im missing you!..
<3 God! | 9:44 PM
Thursday, April 16, 2009
misses
realised i havent talked to you in ages.. ):
dont get the wrong idea please?..
you know i havent changed..
and i know that too..
;lets sit under a rainbow and watch the fluffy cloud loll by..
<3 God! | 11:02 PM
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
(:
i got to be with her!..
buddyship ftw!..
hahaha hope she doesnt mind lol.. xD
;chem..
<3 God! | 10:53 PM
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
get a grip!
just because you've failed in some aspect
doesnt mean that we got to share your misery..
seriously..
stop being indolent..
;whatever..
<3 God! | 10:16 PM
Monday, April 13, 2009
lol?..
lol seriously?.. haha..
waterpolo MS was fun!.. double gold!.. yeaaa..
and walk to mrt with chelsia and xiangying was quite entertaining lol..
i wanna talk to you!..
where are you now!..
;i miss you so..
<3 God! | 9:55 PM
Sunday, April 12, 2009
woah..
there's someone else out there who wants what i want too..
gahh..
;inevitable when the person you like is good..
<3 God! | 6:57 PM
Saturday, April 11, 2009
flooooood..
never gonna let you down
never gonna run around and desert you
never gonna make you cry
never gonna say goodbye
never gonna tell a lie and hurt you
i swear im not lying..
i really dont know why youre crying..
cant you see that im true?..
i really feel that way for you..
;please dont cry?..
<3 God! | 12:13 AM
Friday, April 10, 2009
awsum
got out of bed at all
the morning rain clouds up my window
and i cant see at all
and even if i could it'd all be gray
but your picture on my wall
it reminds me that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
;prettyyyyyyy..
<3 God! | 12:39 AM
Thursday, April 09, 2009
outing on wed!..
nanaseah rach me and kev.. :D
super fun!!.. had lunch at MOS and caught up a lot..
at amk hub haha.. yuppyupp was funn!!..
here are some picturesss..
haha me and christina with her bow handband thingy on me and her new bow clip which she just bought..
rach took this first lol.. im sure cute laa!..
hahaha we were playing love prediction at mos!.. xiangying and i hahaha.. :X but super nice no?.. xD
mine and hers!.. i wish this were true.. but totally not i think haha.. ><yuppyupp.. outing was fun!..
spent hell lots of food though.. 15 bucks for lunch and dinner..
worth it worth it..
worth it worth it..
and i wanna kill germaine yong..
for scamming me into telling her stuff rawr!..
HAHA congrats!.. (:
jerome tooooo.. doubt you guys will see this though..
meijia and heezhi not to worry kay!.. council isnt everything!..
jiayou in all your stuff!..
;whos going home with you tonight..
<3 God! | 10:41 PM
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
sucks!..
too careless..
and too complacent..
RAWR!..
funny story!..
random girl classmate: ... blahh ... yada ... globalisation ... blahh..
mrGL: RAWRRRR!
he actually said RAWR.. haha quite funny.. xD
;abb..
<3 God! | 7:37 PM
Monday, April 06, 2009
strike 1, 2, 3 youre out!..
yupp..
thrice..
got back physics..
did better than expected.. (:
am happy!.. (:
;dont think so much haha.. (:
<3 God! | 8:43 PM
Sunday, April 05, 2009
reproach..
claustrophobic
hate it when everything is pressuring me
especially when im the pressure
but when i pick up i dont have much to say..
;courage..
<3 God! | 9:26 PM
is it?..
;you were never satisfied no matter how i tried..
<3 God! | 12:06 AM
Saturday, April 04, 2009
):
why there is sadness in your eyes?..
i shall be sensitive..
so shall not ask.. ><
;but i really wanna know why.. ):
<3 God! | 10:30 PM
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
am sad.. ):
i expected more from you..
and while talking to you i nearly cried..
please do something about it?..
please?.. and know that i'll always be there for you..
without fail, above anyone else..
just call..
i'll be there..
love you..
;saddening.. ):
<3 God! | 11:54 PM
untitled..
i try to make a sound but no one hears me
the night goes on
as im fading away
;need you around..
<3 God! | 10:19 PM
mmm..
afraid that she'll be sadder!.. ><
but honestly, personally i think that i could have done better..
a B is certainly unsatisfactory..
irregardless of it being a high or low one..
rawr..
;bet she hates me now..
<3 God! | 5:38 PM
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
zzz
infer what you want..
they will merely be rumours..
;i know what youre thinking..
<3 God! | 4:54 PM
Monday, March 30, 2009
not crap!..
;cheer up please?..
<3 God! | 11:29 PM
Sunday, March 29, 2009
and it doesnt help that my favourite flops got stolen.. ):
i'll be your wish
i'll be your fantasy
i'll be your hope
i'll be your love
be everything that you need
i love you more with every breath
truly madly deeply do
i will be strong i will be faithful
coz im counting on a new beginning
a reason for living
a deeper meaning
and when the stars are shining brightly
in the velvet sky
i'll make a wish
send it to heaven
then make you wanna cry
the tears of joy
for all the pleasure and the certainty
that we're surrounded
by the comfort and protection of
the highest power
i wanna stand with you on a mountain
i wanna bathe with you in the sea
i wanna lay like this forever
until the sky falls down on me
;would you be my everything?..
<3 God! | 11:14 PM
soccer..
hurts.. ><
;only 1 goooaaaal.. ):
<3 God! | 3:41 PM
Saturday, March 28, 2009
great day!..
went out with og to marina square and to support yisin and his band!..
they were awesome at Baybeats auditions!..
haha yupp met a lot of other people todayy!..
like tiddy and her og, modern dancers, ms carine ng!..
debby and piying at mrt!..
yea so many people omg i was so surprised!.. hahaha..
funfunfun!.. and im happy things are going quite well for me..
yupp.. and council campaigning coming up!.. looking forward!..
i like my campaign team mentees!.. theyre quite funny hahaha!..
and they call me a lot!.. (: ohhohh germaine's my pri school junior haha!..
coincidental right!.. theyre super nice laa..
JIAYOU GERMAINE, MEIJIA, JEROME AND HEE ZHI!..
ALL THE BEST!.. :D :D
;today would have been perfect if youve called or smsed..
<3 God! | 11:31 PM
Friday, March 27, 2009
4am forever
maybe you thought that it was all pretend
all these words i could never say
i just let them slip away
;why dont you hear me when im crying out to you?..
<3 God! | 6:49 PM
random..
;no more cts.. (:
<3 God! | 3:38 PM
Thursday, March 26, 2009
cant fight this feeling..
im keeping you in sight
youre a candle in the window
on a cold dark winter's night
dont believe everything about what others say..
and i think vocal expression is important..
;complicating things..
<3 God! | 8:47 PM
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
ghouls.
for a while.. while i do maclaurins ughhh..
;is there something i should know?..
<3 God! | 11:37 PM
Saturday, March 21, 2009
i dont want to miss a thing..
watch you smile while you are sleeping
while youre far away and dreaming
i could spend my life in this sweet surrender
i could stay lost in this moment forever
every moment spent with you is a moment i treasure
i dont wanna close my eyes, i dont wanna fall asleep
cause i miss you baby and i dont wanna miss a thing
cause even when i dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do
i still miss you baby and i dont wanna miss a thing
lying close to you feeling your heart beating
and im wondering what youre dreaming
wondering if its me youre seeing
i just wanna stay with you in this moment forever, forever and forever
i dont wanna miss one smile
i dont wanna miss one kiss
i just want to be with you right here with you
just like this, i just wanna hold you close
i'll feel your heart so close to mine
and just stay here in this moment
for all of the rest of time
wishing and wishing..
;studies first.. of course.. sureeee.. ):
<3 God! | 11:20 PM
Friday, March 20, 2009
sadness..
im sorry i cant help.. ):
;rahhs..
<3 God! | 10:32 PM
friday already?!??!?!..
was listening to Why by Nicole Nordeman today in the train..
kept pressing repeat haha.. >< i feel distant..
and listening to the song really showed me again how much He did for me..
i guess my heart must be more directed towards Him.. :X
i suck.. ):
;isaaaaaaaaa..
<3 God! | 9:17 PM
Thursday, March 19, 2009
if..
i'd be with you
tomorrow and today, beside you all the way..
if the world should stop revolving spinning solwly down to die
i'd spend the end with you
and when the world was through
then one by one the stars would all go out
then you and i would simply fly away..
;if only..
<3 God! | 7:30 PM
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
treat goodgood!..
keep suanning me rawr!.. ><
ohhwells.. glad your internet's back!..
though you say sucky.. :X and hope you wont get distracted!..
haha.. ohhwells.. i think im not studying hard enough..
): i must buck up!.. ):
or i will do badly for CTs..
AGAIN..
T.T
;reply meeeeee!.. ):
<3 God! | 11:06 PM
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
owned
quite hilarious laa.. keep laughing at each other..
i like studying and catching up with friends at the same time!..
was at macs at City Hall - Bugis that area..
good place to study i would say..
we went for dinner at some tian something restaurant..
it was goooood.. (: haha.. cr's recommendation..
then after dinner, something funny happened..
i opened the door for cr and cyn to leave, then after they left, got 3 people wanted to come in, so i continued holding the door.. then the first guy that entered said 'NI HAO' to me!..
OMG HE THOUGHT I WAS ONE OF THE STAFF!..
cr and cyn laughed until their butts dropped off..
had to pick up their butts after them..
and seriously considering whether to enrol for sot or not.. hmm.. :X
;at a loss?..
<3 God! | 9:28 PM
Monday, March 16, 2009
thoughts
wildfire!!.. ):
og lunch was goooood.. (:
and i love my new Gap cap.. (: (: (:
;thankyouuuuuu.. :D
<3 God! | 8:09 PM
Sunday, March 15, 2009
secret?..
did you have to tell it?..
i thought it was a secret?..
now im starting to think whether i should have kept it or not..
somehow i feel i would be better off telling it..
;ohhdamn..
<3 God! | 6:04 PM
Saturday, March 14, 2009
esoteric..
anyways before that, xiangy and i went to mug together for like a few hours.. and omg we were totally unproductive hahaha.. :D
rather she..
she went looking for ZOcards and she found many many!..
and she and i began drawing on a couple of them.. hahaha..
she drew the bottom one.. oms super hilarious please!..
lol..
yea.. dont ask me who the girl is..
i dunno..
yupp.. hahaha she drew someone's name there.. i dowan to malu myself man..
she wrote a name of someone like 20 years plus older than me!..
crazy woman.. xD hahaha..
yea chorale was awesomee!..
although we were all late.. :X
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went to nus openhouse today with sabby..
was quite an eyeopening experience?.. coz saw so many people!..
bet all smarter than me..
and i think if i get into nus would like to join either TH or EH!..
went to changi airport after that for lunch and haha..
sab and i were talking about yijie and suddenly!..
we heard 'nigel and sabina arh!'
omg i had the shock of my life..
seriously heart start jumping like mad.. hahaha..
she was like behind us but didnt hear what we said..
didnt say bad stuff laa.. but still haha..
quite hilarious.. and i think.. popeye's gave me a sore throat.. ):
church today talked about something like servant leadership..
and i realised i have totally forgot about it.. ): i suck..
still remember isle where ms chow told me so much about it..
am still very fascinated and wish to put it to practice!..
if i have the chance?.. (:
yay long post!.. shall end here!..
;am i the confusing and scary problem?..
<3 God! | 9:28 PM
blehhs..
to make me weak inside
girl you leave me breathless
but it's okay 'cause
youre my survival
now hear me say
i can't imagine life
without your love
even forever don't seem
like long enough
;when will your internet be okay!..
<3 God! | 12:15 AM
Monday, March 09, 2009
...
;im sorry for all the wrongs ive done!..
<3 God! | 10:03 PM
Sunday, March 08, 2009
wake up
you can never win him.. seriously..
he's fitter, he's nicer, he's smarter, he's better than you in every way..
what makes you think you can win him?..
dont waste your time and effort..
you won't win..
you'll always be second place..
how about maybe not even near second?..
;mt won dramafeste!.. (:
<3 God! | 1:31 AM
Friday, March 06, 2009
ohh please..
no one knows me well enough..
i know so much more than you think i do..
really..
;mystery's the key..
<3 God! | 10:36 PM
Thursday, March 05, 2009
diary of ...
reflective like a mirror..
hmm..
i will try to find my place in the diary of ...
HAHA my mentees think that im an ahbeng..
best.. xD quite funny.. 2nd time people call me ahbeng le lol..
do i really look like one???.. O.O im sure please..
and im super happy i got gold for napfa!.. (: improved for every station whee!..
celebrate celebrate!..
;aww i love lee and low and ... toooo.. (:
<3 God! | 10:21 PM
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
dreamdreamdream
i dont want him around!..
dream on mans..
;know whats going through your mind..
<3 God! | 8:57 PM
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
music
please?..
haha was telling friend yesterday night that i always try to draw parallels of my life to music.. dunno why also really.. i just feel good when i know that there's something that can relate to me.. (:
i really hope cynthia's fine!.. shall sms to ask.. xD im in an okay mood todayyy.. (: except for the fact that my specs broke..
gahh..
;i know im emptied to be filled again..
<3 God! | 8:59 PM
Monday, March 02, 2009
isle!.. :X
was listening to At The Beginning just now.. ><
felt so sad!.. omgosh ahh..
but dont think many of my teammates feel that way?..
which is kinda sighh..
am i going to be the last to ever forget isle thailand?..
no..
i wont forget isle thailand '08..
i wont..
;i should hold back..
<3 God! | 10:33 PM
Sunday, March 01, 2009
reflections of my life
;no prizes for guessing my mood now..
<3 God! | 11:04 PM
must see!..
please watch this video.. super nice..
sister introed me..
i think true love's amazing..
;i cried.. :X
<3 God! | 6:26 PM
mmmhmmm
new sms limit.. (:
going for dramafeste and chorale!.. xD wheeee~~~
last chance to attend all these stuff as a rafflesian.. i must!..
;happy for now.. xD
<3 God! | 1:15 AM
Saturday, February 28, 2009
some things?..
am going to have to go to bed hungry tonight.. didnt have dinner..
supper was so little.. sighh..
im tired.. shall go sleep..
will be dropping by YGH tml!.. xD
;i feel very made used of..
<3 God! | 12:38 AM
Thursday, February 26, 2009
omg why!..
and while im thinking, im reflecting.. (yes bad thing i know)
im thinking, all these while, maybe im hurting the one i loved..
im thinking, all these times, i havent been paying enough attention to you..
im thinking, all these times, i should have been firmer..
im thinking, all these times, whether it's really worth it?..
im thinking, all these times, i've found it back again..
im thinking, all these times, why the hell do i have so many regrets..
wont you please tell me what you feel about me?..
;cast my feelings in stone.. please?..
<3 God! | 11:57 PM
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
thinking too much?..
think im just thinking too much..
ahhwells..
;im a screwup.. need to pull up grades!..
<3 God! | 9:54 PM