dont really know if i have made the right choice?..

but anyway it seems like He is throwing many obstacles my way.. rejection after rejection, loss after loss..
come to think of it, this week was horrendous.. 1 screwed up cohesion, 2 rejections, numerous attitude problems, multiple losses.. and suddenly everything seems so expensive.. im drawing money day after day.. fucking warrant officer as guailan as ever.. reprimanding by superiors (because of fucked up warrant officer).. fatigue, stress, extreme emotions..

im really starting to feel very weary, and sick at all my decisions.. mood has been faltering so much it's like a seismometer on a 10.0 Ritcher Scale earthquake locality..

i really dont understand Him many times.. and my friends are tired and moody too.. i dont wanna burden them anymore.. it's not fair for them to share my pains..

and if it turns out i cant even extend my service, fml..

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME. I CANT EVEN POST A BLOGPOST SMOOTHLY.
FUCK THIS SHIT.

;i need rest. a vacation would be best.

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